Wednesday, October 19, 2011
it's so easy to get lost
So… I've been spending a lot of time at home -- too much, actually -- and I guess it's just because like, I don't feel like talking to anyone, really. Is that bad? I'm pretty sure it is. A teeny-tiny amount of people have asked what's been going on but I just… prefer to keep it to myself. Besides, the truth is... even I don't seem to know what's wrong and it's probably because I keep avoiding to find out what the problem actually is (which would help me figure things out). That's just it about me: not only do I run away from people; I run away from myself, too -- or my thoughts, at least.
Maybe I do know what the problem is. Maybe I'm just in denial.
How the hell am I going to fix myself if I keep doing this?
What a mess.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
rub-bish
I always feel like I need to talk someone, but I never want to. I'm never sure why though. I've always kind of preferred analyzing it myself and making up all these theories and solutions about my 'situations' and 'problems' but I end up making way too many so I'm always like... confused. I'm never sure about anything when it comes to my life and shit about myself. What is it with me?
I've faced way too any problems in the past so now when new 'problems' come my way, I just automatically not make a big deal out of it. And the thing is... I don't know if that's a good thing because like, in a way, it's like I'm considering myself unimportant or something. Whatever. I don't even know why I'm blogging.
Anyway hi, if anyone even reads this blog.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
it's so easy to get lost
So… I've been spending a lot of time at home -- too much, actually -- and I guess it's just because like, I don't feel like talking to anyone, really. Is that bad? I'm pretty sure it is. A teeny-tiny amount of people have asked what's been going on but I just… prefer to keep it to myself. Besides, the truth is... even I don't seem to know what's wrong and it's probably because I keep avoiding to find out what the problem actually is (which would help me figure things out). That's just it about me: not only do I run away from people; I run away from myself, too -- or my thoughts, at least.
Maybe I do know what the problem is. Maybe I'm just in denial.
How the hell am I going to fix myself if I keep doing this?
What a mess.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
rub-bish
I always feel like I need to talk someone, but I never want to. I'm never sure why though. I've always kind of preferred analyzing it myself and making up all these theories and solutions about my 'situations' and 'problems' but I end up making way too many so I'm always like... confused. I'm never sure about anything when it comes to my life and shit about myself. What is it with me?
I've faced way too any problems in the past so now when new 'problems' come my way, I just automatically not make a big deal out of it. And the thing is... I don't know if that's a good thing because like, in a way, it's like I'm considering myself unimportant or something. Whatever. I don't even know why I'm blogging.
Anyway hi, if anyone even reads this blog.
