Wednesday, October 19, 2011
it's so easy to get lost
So… I've been spending a lot of time at home -- too much, actually -- and I guess it's just because like, I don't feel like talking to anyone, really. Is that bad? I'm pretty sure it is. A teeny-tiny amount of people have asked what's been going on but I just… prefer to keep it to myself. Besides, the truth is... even I don't seem to know what's wrong and it's probably because I keep avoiding to find out what the problem actually is (which would help me figure things out). That's just it about me: not only do I run away from people; I run away from myself, too -- or my thoughts, at least.
Maybe I do know what the problem is. Maybe I'm just in denial.
How the hell am I going to fix myself if I keep doing this?
What a mess.
